All I Need is You, Lord.

Allow me to invite you into this morning's journal entry:
I'm living this really neat life. Experiencing my undergrad years at a Christian university, perusing what I love, in a community of people who also love the Lord. I live in a really cool dorm as the RA of a floor of girls I love, with a floor partner, staff, and boss who amaze me. On top of all that, I've been raised by committed parents who have set a stellar example for me in life.
Yet...
I struggle with self-confidence, embarrassment, sadness.
ALL I NEED is you, Lord! Would you help me to have my heart in the right place? Thank you for blessing me with the life I'm living, but forgive me whenever I cling to it... worse yet, when I cling to the status my position in life brings me. It's pretty detestable. I want to stand blameless before you and live in your reality. You're taking care and you're in control.
God, I still feel like you're whispering to me, "You don't know! I'm doing something great in you life!" Help me to trust that.
How great are you, my God, my love.

Love you, Sissy!

Laura, my big sister, is one of my favorite people. I remember on her wedding day I wrote her a note that made both of us cry... I recently found that note in a box of hers when we were moving and re-read it. I said I loved being called her little sister, loved sounding like her on the phone, loved looking like her (maybe not so much in this particular picture, but usually there's a remarkable resemblance!)
These things are still true. I have always enjoyed being eight and a half years younger than Laura because we never went through a "fighting stage". We've always been friends. Sure, I've been the annoying little sister plenty of times, but our age difference is mostly a perk. More importantly, her and I relate to each other very well emotionally. We understand each others concerns and inconsistencies (though I am usually impressed with her stability in life!). We have a great coping mechanism when one of us is going through a hard time. We'll ask, "What do you need? Do you need to talk or do you need a distraction?"
I also quite admire Laura's productive compassion. What I mean by productive is this: she does not just feel for the less fortunate, but actually takes practical steps toward helping them. In fact, her job at church is devoted to this sort of care!
She is assertive, yet introverted. She and I can be silly together, but also just be together. She is a great wife and daughter and has a subtle way of looking out for everyone's needs.
My prayer for you, readers, is that you have someone in your life, today and always, who can know you well and love you the way you need to be loved.
Love you, Sissy!

Making a birthday great

Happy Birthday, Dad! My family and I made merry my dad's special day on Friday, complete with dinner, games, and homemade frozen yogurt. I love birthdays because they are a chance to make loved-ones feel special. So, how do you make a birthday great?
-Everyone is entitled to a "birthday week". Make your special one's birthday week by reminding them, "only __ days 'til your birthday!". A birthday eve is especially brilliant for celebrating when someone's birthday will be on a work/school day.
-Decorate! In our dorm rooms, we decorate people's doors with crape paper, ribbon, signs, etc. I love to choose a theme. For my dad's birthday I went with a Chinese theme, putting up red and yellow streamers, Chinese lanterns and a Chinese "happy birthday" sign.
-Make little efforts throughout the day to make the birthday person feel special. I like to send texts or do a certain number of tiny things (for a 16-year-old, maybe sixteen pieces of chocolate hidden where they'll find them throughout their day). These things can show someone you care for them, even if you don't have much money to spend on a gift.
Speaking of thrifty ideas...
-Make a gift! Putting together a picture collage, giving a "ticket" for whatever kind of cookie they choose, or packaging up something cheap, like a dozen crazy-print socks are a few ideas. If you're buying a gift, perhaps wrap it in a piece of your own art or the comics page of a newspaper. I gave my dad a hand made scarf for his trip to Minnesota and wrapped it in the sports page!
I encourage you to make a great birthday in the near future... and remember: sometimes efforts of time make more of an impression than do sacrifices of money.

Caffeine Saga

First of all, I have a love-hate accord with caffeine.
The reason? It intensely effects me... like special effects. If I'm sleepy, I'll drink a cup of coffee and wake up in no time. Love that! And since I'm a good sleeper, I don't actually need caffeine often. However, if I drink too much caffeine, I get some serious jitters. Since one cup of a caffeinated beverage keeps me alert for about five hours, I have to be scrupulous. Sometimes I tell myself, "But I love coffee! I shouldn't have to be so attentive to how much caffeine I'm taking in." So my resolve?
Half Caf!
Just enough to give me that burst of energy, but not enough to leave me with the jitters. Now if I'm at Starbuck's, it's a different story. A cup of half caf Starbucks wakes me up like a cup of ordinary anything-else. So we do decaf there. (Who's we? Me and my friend Blanch who lives in my head? I would delete it and say "I", but I'm just in that kind of a mood, hehe.)
Now, coffee versus soda versus tea. Coffee tends to act strongest (at least in my body. It may be different in yours). Soda is next (it will especially get me roused up if it's heavy in sugar too). Tea is last, unless we're talking Chai, which does the magic caffeine thing for me. For some, black tea makes them most alert. My parents drink tea almost every day and find black tea to be helpful with wakefulness.
The last thing I have to say about caffeine? I didn't learn how to spell it until last year! It's an inksome one... I used to spell it "caffine".
Ok, not really the last thing. Here's my final statement on the matter: though I am grateful for coffee and such, my goal has always been to not become addicted. The Lord has provided me with the resources to get a good night sleep most days. Before I reach for a tasty bev, I do my best to check that I'm relying on God, not a (legal) drug (and thank you, Lord, that it is legal!). This is a conviction he's given me, but the story may be different for you!

Sweet, Baby Boy!

My nephew, Levi was born yesterday evening... he is healthy and big! God is so good. This is a true blessing to my brother, sister-in-law, and our whole family. As we said little prayers for him all day long, the Lord heard each one and brought his mom and dad the baby they've been praying for long and hard themselves. Even though I won't get to see him in person until April, I am excited to have a nephew. I'm bent on being the "cool aunt". I am young, after all!
That's all I have to say for now; a nice, short post. A picture will probably be coming soon.
What blessings have you experienced this weekend?

Honing Your Hobbies

I am an advocate of helping people discover their hobbies. A good way to recognize a hobby is by thinking about what you would do on a day off. Hobbies help to de-stress and they provide a productive way to spend your free time... and even when free time is not prevalent, finding a reasonable amount of time to break and enjoy hobbies is so helpful. Some of my hobbies include, but are not limited to:
-art journaling
-crocheting
-making greeting cards and bookmarks
-being outdoors
-watching good movies
-learning how to play new games
-singing and dancing... everywhere (ok, kind of)
-cooking and baking
-visiting farmer's markets (this is a hobby I'm currently trying to develop!)
Realizing what is enjoyable to you is a great way to connect with your Creator. The Lord not only gives us things to enjoy, but he also enjoys watching our enjoyment! To be purposeful with your down time... even if what you enjoy most is napping or watching TV, can be a way to glorify God. I'm not saying that life should consist only of rest and hobbies... not even in retirement, but a balanced life is a healthy and harmonized life; One that has time set aside for rest, hobbies, and pleasure.
What are you enjoying today?

Posture, Please!

When I was eleven, I would hear my ballet teacher say, "Can you give me some posture, please?" as students would walk in and out of the studio. Being a dancer for most of my life, I should have mastered the art of posture by now, but I sadly have not. So on Monday, I started a three week posture campaign! It takes twenty one days to form a habit and I am determined to improve my posture. I want to be a healthier person and I want to be free of the tension headaches that so often pester me! So here's what I've unearthed in the past four days of my personal posture program:
-Your heels, rear, face of your shoulder blades, and back of your head should be in a straight line... it's easy to start out against a wall.
-Tilting a desk/office chair forward is helpful because you can still rest against its back, for the most part.
-After a few days of good posture, you will be sore! It's tempting to slouch, but I know my back muscles are getting stronger.
-You have to let yourself rest. When reading, watching TV, etc, use lots of pillows to build good support for your back and neck, but then let your body relax.
Of course this is all amateur advice, but I'm learning! Give a shout out if you'd like to join in the posture party and we can keep each other accountable.